Post by Sparrow on Apr 5, 2011 12:35:57 GMT -6
<---- SWANFEATHER
female, nineteen moons
RANK: warrior
ALLIANCE: HillClan
APPEARANCE: white she-cat with green eyes and black patches.
PERSONALITY:
[SELF CONSCIOUS & A DREAMER]Swanfeather is the most self concious cat you could ever meet. She is always aware of eyes and her. From then she gets very nervous and tends to start babbling ,because shes afraid she has done something wrong. As you can imagine she has ow self esteem and has a hard time boosting it up, rare actually. She constantly checks her fur to make sure everything is in place, which really no matter how she left it she would look pretty. She always thought of herself as the cinderella of the group, low to everyone and not good enough to do anything right.
Swanfeather likes to spend her free time day dreaming, since it is her escape from the worlds judging eyes. In her mind she could reach for the stars ,but when in the real world she is to cautious to take a step towards it. She has her silent hopes though and with that believes strongly in StarClan and believes that they control every cats fate. She just hopes they can spare time to help her. She dreams for than anything that she could become strong, and become death to judgements and be the best and most well respected cat of all time. Sometimes she does not know if its good to be dreamer or not if it makes her hopeful or a fool.
[INSIGHTFUL & GENTLE]Swanfeather has an amazing insight, she can view the world in many different angles. Well others would know that if she came to trust them with her thoughts. Though to her she feels they are silly and everyone would laugh at the foolish she-cat. Really she has a great way of looking at everything and the meanings behind it. Swanfeather despite her self concious ways is rather clever and often catches everything before anyone else has if considered it. She has a way of talking that makes anyone believe her words forcfully, but she has never tried to speak her mind. She tends to keep to hersef on these issues and just go with what everyone else is saying. Even if she doesnt fully believe their motives.
Swanfeather has a voice that can sooth many if they took the time to listen. She knows when to be gentle with others to help them understand a situationm hich is why many of the older kits are fond of her. She treats veryone with respect and just leaving the nursery herself knows the feeling of being casted down because of age. She has a way of making cats of all ages see her point of view and consider it throughly. Swanfeather was given her name for her graceful appearance and it is when she is in this state you see it the most. She likes to put expression and movemet into her stories to help give it some significance.
[STERN & A GOOD LISTENER]On her rare occasions of bravery Swanfeather could be very stern, and rather harsh as well. This only happens when she feels some injustice is being done, or they are missing smething important and it iritates her. She knows when to be stern with someone when being gentle doesnt help. She could have a voice like knifes that cut through every part of your being. Many are shocked to ever witness this part of Swanfeather, and now when shes like this to take her seriously. This is very good for when she wants a stubborn crowd to listen to her and get her point. Without knowing it she is a really good speaker.
Swanfeather is a great listener since she at this point is afraid to speak. She tentivly listens to every word someone says, finding the best answer to their questons. She is good at giving advice and would be a good friend to make. She tries her best to soak up all the information carefully, which also makes her good at memorizing the herbs her mentor tells her. Her soothing voice helps a troubled cat with the sincerity in her voice, and because she is self concious of herself she does not want anyone to feel that way, and so she is not judgemental. But she will state if she disapproves but leaves it at that, she is a very trusting cat.
[WARM & CLUMSY]Swanfeather also on rare occasions can be seen as warm. This side is kept to her close friends. She can have a warm and fun side when she wants to, and during this state you could see her for all her beauty. She is caring and playful and for once she doesnt care what others think of her because she is in her world. She has a humorous side and is actually funny at times or attempts to be at least. This is seeing Swanfeather at her best mood and she can't be brought down from it to easily.
Even someone like Swanfeather is careless at times and doesnt watch where her paws are going. She often trips over herself, which is why you can imagine she is self conscious. Or when she tries her best to keep things neat she somehow accidently knocks it over. This is when she most blames herself and hangs her head in shame. She doesnt speak at this time because she is afraid to say something stupid, and does not believe in excuses.
[COMPLEX & DISTANT]Swanfeather has slowly through out her life become very nervous about everything. Her self conscious nature has taken it up a notch to the point that even the slightest sounds make her flinch. Ever since her accident as a young apprentice, she started developing voices in her head that tell her bad things, bringing out a darker nature to Swanfeather though she fights off an impulsive thoughts brought on by 'the voices'. She doesn't like to be surprised because of this, and little things make her jumpy to the point that she can't just sit still. She feels that if she keeps moving and focusing on other things then the voices will disappear and she can be her own person again. When the voices become to loud it can cause her to become bipolar and lash out at the nearest person, with words mainly, and become distant. She feels it's better for her not to fall for anyone because then she can't hurt them and they can't hurt her. Though deep down Swanfeather needs something stable to rid herself of her insecurities and voices.
REASON FOR NAME: She was given the prefix swan for the white on her pelt that resembled the bird. She was given her suffix feather for her soft nature.
FAMILY:
[MOTHER]darkmist
[FATHER]cloudstep
[SIBLINGS]frecklekit,Airpaw
HISTORY:
When the world was new>> Swanfeather was born as a HillClan cat on a calm day during new leaf. Her mother was the beautiful Darkmist, a pretty black she-cat with sparkling gold eyes. Her father was the large and handsome Cloudstep, a large pale white tabby with green colored eyes. Together they had three kits, Frecklekit, Airkit, and Swankit. Frecklekit was her sister, and sadly born deaf. She had a speckled pelt with black and grey colors with gold eyes. Her brother was Airkit, a rather large tom kit with a pale tabby and white pelt and gold eyes. Growing up with her siblings was one of the best moons of her young life. Till tragedy struck and Frecklekit went missing. They found patches of her fur later, out on the hills. She was taken by a bird seeing as feathers were also found at the scene. Her mother became an emotional wreck after the loss of one of her kits, and grew rather insane.Cloudstep tried his best to care for his mate, but grew exhausted from the constant fighting. He soon became vicitm of green cough that following leafbare, and passed on to starclan.
Growing up is such sweet sorrow>> At the age of six moons Swankit and Airkit were given their apprentice names. Swanpaw and Airpaw. Swanpaw grew very close to her brother during these moons, and they often did everything together. Their mother was completly insane now and often wondered off muttering things to herself. Watching her mother grow into this mad cat, made her very upset. Still the two siblings tried to make the best of it, while Airpaw defended his sister from comments about their mother. On a sunny afternoon the two apprentices decided to go play in the abandoned cabin at the outskirts of the territory. While climbing on the wood stacks, piled rather high, Swanpaw stumbled and the whole thing came crashing down on her. When she awoke she was in the medicine cats den getting cobweb placed on her head, luckily she didn't brake anything but was badly bruised. One night after Swanpaw had mostly recovered her and Airpaw deicded to go and try to talk to their mother. That night they found her on the hills, looking at the sky and cursing herself. When they approached her mother jumped backing away and hissing at them like they were complete strangers. They tried to talk to her, telling her that they still needed her as a mother ,but instead she attacked them. Blaming them for Frecklekits death and in the end, she ended up killing her own son, Airpaw who was defending Swanpaw. Swanpaw was disgusted with her mother, and ran back to camp to tell the others. By then a group of warriors, including Swanpaw drove her off the territory. It was after Airpaw's burial she started to her voices, most likely due to her great loss, stress, and possibly slight head trauma from before.
Stepping into the light alone>> On her 13th moon she was made into a warrior. Given the name Swanfeather. During this time she had her vigil and after that, started her trips of walking alone. It was hard for her to be close to anyone else, after all thats happend to her. She often wandered on the hills by herself, which other cats thought her a bit suspicious for, seeing as what happend with her mother a few moons back. Still Swanfeather was nothing like her mother, and did not isolate herself to blame herself for what happened, but did so just to think, and grieve silently about the loved ones she had lost. Swanfeather tries to be better about it, to get more involved, but she feels like everyone is watching her just waiting for her to snap like her mother did. Still she tries to put on a sweet facade when she can to act normal even when the voices are yelling in her head. Deep down all she wanted was something stable and real.
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